Monday, November 30, 2009

On how my life is constantly improving: Part I

During one of my "therapy" sessions with my dear friend, after I narrated my usual self-indulgent misery stories, she commented on how we have different anxiety triggers at various points in life. In aggregate, however, I realized that the number of triggers/events have dramatically reduced over the years. I am more relaxed, have put on much needed weight, and look healthier than I ever have.

For instance, I no longer have to wake up early in the morning to study. I can rise leisurely past seven or even eight, drag myself to work an hour later, contemplate life's mysteries and my favorite websites for a little longer; and finally get down to work when I am at my most productive.

I also love the fact that on most days, my time after work is pure pleasure. No more exams to study for or homework assignments to complete. If I so choose, I can park myself in front of the laptop with a pint of chocolate ice-cream, and watch movies/read books/listen to music/float into a pensive reverie all evening. And all this is reward for a hard day's work.

I live in a first world nation's rich suburb with noise ordinances and structured rules. Daily living is no longer a hassle. I don't have to go through the day wondering if the RTC bus will shown up on time/ever show up, nor do I have to expend mental energy arguing with recalcitrant auto drivers. I don't have to cross a busy road (without a proper pedestrian crossing for miles) and worry about whether I will make it alive to the other end. Nor do I have to put up with loud music blared through a religious institution's loudspeakers (yes, I respect your faith; no, I don't want to hear about it at 5 am).

I also live in one of the most woman friendly nations. I am not bound by rigid patriarchal traditions, nor do I seek validation from participating in patriarchal institutions. I have finally learnt the distinction between being a kind & considerate human being vs. blindly adhering to artificial standards of religious morality and conformity. The two are mutually exclusive, and there are at least some pockets in this nation that recognize that fact (and I'm lucky enough to live in one of them.)

This post is turning out to be longer than I anticipated. That's a good sign. I shall let you contemplate on these points while I compose the next part.


Sushmita said...

When I was a kid, I remember being told about how awesome childhood is. But this is so much better - when we have real freedom to lead our lives, and also we have gained enough knowledge and understanding to have more control over our lives and thoughts. I have some grey hair here and there, and I feel good about them. I feel I'm growing towards understanding and peace.

Usha said...

:) love the phase you girls are in! Also love that part about distinction between being considerate and following some religious norms. BTW, there is a temple bell tolling away to glory next door and I have just gone and shut all the windows to prevent the smoke from this temple entering my kitchen and bedroom :)